Sweet and sour, puckered tongues, and stained fingertips
I had a great line here, but I deleted it in revision
I tend to ramble and I drop in images from the things I've learned
And I've learned a lot.
So much crime in the world today, makes me wanna hide under the covers
But you can't stay there because you have shit to do
You brutalized the umami on my taste buds
I'm sucking down hydrogen monoxide to restore my sanity
Turned out, dropped in, this state I'm in (California)
He sighs loudly from his lips and the halitosis is intense
I'm glad this doesn't apply to me because I'd be freaking out right now
How much gas did I use to get here?
And how do I get back?
I'll never know when it ends until the next door splinters
in the hallway of my belligerent head
All I could think of the moment I moved in Is that I came full circle to my childhood. Front lawns with no grass, only broken cars; Margarita salt was a common candy on the playground. We didn't know any better. And margarita salt is pretty good on its own. McMansions filled my eyes for over a decade, but I feel safer buried in its conformity. A funny observation because I never felt like that before. Scrawny, tall for an American-born Asian, the only Filipino in every class I was in. I never culturally fit in with the Mexicans, blacks, and eventual white flight from the Southside. The dread of what I left behind so long ago returned. My car got broken into at Denny's. Stared at. Silently judged. Dismissed. I'm ready to go. I know what home is. I think. Cool guys walk away from explosions. Not me. I stare into the fire, drawn to the heat, like the spiders at the Door to Hell. I must be the only academic who hates statistics. Numbers bore me. Money is quantified by numbers, and I never have any. I've come full circle in two years. Where do I go from here? Writing poems looks like I'm taking notes. No shame. They don't know me. I'd give anything to sleep right now. I haven't had a day off in over three weeks. I thrive on Red Bulls, and prayers. I sleep when I can get it. With my dog at my feet. He wakes up too easily. Bouncing like a butiki to rob me of my dreams. The Sandman works twice as hard when we snuggle. Twisted dreams peppered with Wilhelm screams.
Ready to consume a creative writing podcast?
Subscribe to raconteuse radio via your favorite podcast app!
This small but mighty podcast examines how words on the page sound different when the creator brings the words to life. Join me as I celebrate all the diverse emerging voices that I can find, and the industry folks behind the scenes too. Want to be featured? Submit your pitch!
It’s time to step into the spotlight.