Autobiography

Last updated: December 29, 2011

I once read a story where the character described what they weren’t, instead of what they are. So here is my lame attempt at Being Haruki Murakami.

I am not a mother. I do not do drugs. I never leave my house without my iPhone. I do not sleep around. I am not a published author. I never get road rage because I am too busy listening to the great music coming out of my car’s speakers. I am not a bitch. I do not talk much but that is because after 28 years of being spoken at, not to, you find ways to cope with injustices in your own way. I never stop the sarcastic remarks that slip from my lips. I am not perfect, no matter how good I make it look. I do not care if a common area mess is there and I did not do it, if it’s in my way, I will take the time to fix it. I do not have the attention span to read all the great books on the two bookcases in my room. I cannot stand strong smells, and I never wear perfume.

I am an American of Filipino descent. I am someone’s favorite tita. I am a daughter. I am someone’s ninang. I am a sister. I got soul, but I’m not a soldier. I get distracted easily. I count up to twenty and back down again obsessively. I take a shower every night. I make movies. I can cook very well. Music is the color of my parachute. I am a casual drinker. When I love, I am cautious. I fumble my words a lot. I live in a cave. You break my heart; I break your neck. I love the Golden Age of Hollywood. I don’t pray as often as I should. All I want for Christmas is someone to share my music with.

Bucket List

• Get my feet wet in the Seven Seas (Atlantic and Pacific Oceans are done)
• Do a Blogathon for a charity
• Visit all the international Disney Parks: Walt Disney World, Tokyo Disney, Disneyland Paris, Hong Kong Disneyland, Shanghai Disneyland
• Visit the Smithsonian
• See the Running of the Bulls in Pamplona
• Pay off all of my debt
• Speak French fluently
• Star in a movie
• Save $500 (or more)
• Become a mother
• Learn how to drive stick-shift
• Relearn the piano
• Sing with a band
• Lose ten pounds
• Watch the classic Twilight Zone series from beginning to end
• Read the Newbery Award winners in one year
• Meet a President of the United States
• Celebrate Mass with the Pope in Vatican City
• Celebrate New Year’s Eve in Times Square
• Get a boy to write a song about me
• Get published
• Find True Love
• Win the lottery
• Travel down Route 66 from beginning to end
• Visit all the old missions in California
• Win a karaoke contest
• Go swimming in the Pacific Ocean with my dog
• Write “TKO bitch” on a washroom stall
• Wear a fur coat during a PETA rally
• Graduate from college completed May 2010
• Take my parents back to the Philippines
• Visit Hawai’i
• Visit Alaska
• Visit Australia/NZ
• Visit Washington D.C.
• Visit Toronto
• Visit Vancouver
• Visit Seattle
• Visit London
• Celebrate Mardi Gras in New Orleans
• Get LASIK

100 Things

1. My siblings and I were born like stairsteps: boy, girl, boy, girl (me!), boy.
2. I have 6 nieces and nephews (and counting!).
3. I spent my teenaged years & some of my 20s helping raise 2 of them.
4. I hold a Bachelor’s of Arts in English, with a minor in History.
5. No, I don’t want to be a teacher.
6. I dream like I’m watching a movie.
7. I have very few people I count as friends.
8. Music is my first love.
9. I am a Disney geek.
10. I talked to Mandy Moore on AIM once.
11. I didn’t get my first kiss until my early 20s.
12. Everyone associates Hello Kitty with me… and I LOVE IT! XD
13. I love to write. It’s the only thing I feel like I was born to do.
14. I love buying books and movies.
15. I make cash on the side selling those books and movies when I’m done with them.
16. My first boyfriend was in second grade.
17. My first crush was a little blonde boy in a 49ers jacket in kindergarten.
18. I’ve lived in 3 cities my whole life: Union City, Modesto, & Las Vegas.
19. I’m socially liberal, fiscally conservative.
20. I was born in 1983, the year “A Christmas Story” was released.
21. I wish I studied film at school.
22. I would’ve been a filmmaker. Like Billy Wilder: writing, directing, producing.
23. Mariah Carey was my diva. I followed her career relentlessly in the 90s.
24. I ran for student body president in 5th grade, running against a popular girl. I lost.
25. I trained in flute, piccolo and piano. I can’t play them anymore.
26. My favorite Disney princess is Cinderella, with Tiana in 2nd.
27. I HATE Sleeping Beauty.
28. I have a problem with making eye contact. I’m trying to break myself of that tho.
29. The first song I remember singing was “Stop! In the Name of Love” by the Supremes.
30. My parents were musicians, and that’s how they met.
31. I come from a military family: Navy, Army, Air Force.
32. I’m Catholic. I don’t get to church as often as I’d like.
33. “Alias” – the TV show – changed my life.
34. The Killers changed my life.
35. *NSYNC changed my life.
36. I design and host websites in my spare time.
37. I make just enough money to break even every month.
38. I collect music like a hoarder.
39. If I could live in any century it’d be the 19th.
40. I’m lazy. And proud of it!
41. English is my only language.
42. I love driving. I’ve only been in 1 accident my whole life.
43. I would love to one day meet all the friends I’ve made online.
44. I’m addicted to my chapstick.
45. Pink is my favourite colour.
46. I wish Indiana Jones was real. So I could follow him around like a dork.
47. My dream car is a Shelby GT 500, just like Memphis in “Gone in 60 Seconds.”
48. I’m not a hardcore gamer but I love video games.
49. Ohnotheydidnt changed the way I look at celebrity news.
50. I’m cripplingly quiet in real life.
51. Get me in front of a computer or give me a notebook & I unleash the silence.
52. Everyone has roles in their family. I’m the “smart” one.
53. I still live at home. I’ve never lived by myself.
54. If I like a movie I’ll watch it until I’ve got it memorized.
55. I want to move back to Northern California someday.
56. I know the layout of Disneyland like the back of my hand.
57. I collect t-shirts.
58. My greatest fear is to die unloved.
59. I have a playlist that I want played at my funeral.
60. “Too Young to Fight It” by Young Love is my top played song on iTunes.
61. I try not to live in the past, nor idealize it. Too much pain.
62. Don’t betray me or you will have gained an enemy for life.
63. I always catch the eye of the wrong guy.
64. I’m single because I need to find me first.
65. I don’t want to be the girl who loses her identity when she gets with a guy.
66. I don’t want to be defined by my marriage or my family. I wanna stand on my own 2 feet.
67. I started writing poetry in 8th grade to deal with emotions and feelings I didn’t even know I had.
68. Invisibility would be my super power.
69. I have a really sharp sense of humor. I think it catches people off guard when I crack a joke.
70. I can’t stand hospitals. They make me ill.
71. I love going to museums. And libraries.
72. I’m socially awkward. Being in crowds are not my thing.
73. I’m a Virgo.
74. I’m a Water Pig.
75. I trust Eastern astrology more than Western.
76. I’ve worked in retail and customer service pretty much my whole professional career.
77. Photography is a passion of mine.
78. I gained something like 50 lbs when I moved from Cali to LV.
79. I have the worst seasonal allergies.
80. I wish I could time travel with the Doctor.
81. I’ve known how to kill vampires since I was in elementary school, read a book on it once.
82. I hate dubbed tracks; everything has to be in its natural language.
83. I watch TV and movies with the closed captioned on, if I can.
84. My career of choice is creative writing.
85. I can hold my own in karaoke.
86. I love attending shows in Vegas.
87. I like to experience something new every time I do something.
88. Going to the movies and shopping are my favorite things to do.
89. I love to clean. That’s why I wait so long to do it, so there’s dirt and stuff to clean!
90. I paid for my college education out of my own pocket (with a little help from the parents).
91. I paid for my car out of my own pocket (no money down, fail).
92. The farthest I’ve driven away from home was to go to Disneyland.
93. My first celebrity crush was Joey McIntyre from NKOTB.
94. My next big celebrity crush was Tiger Woods.
95. I don’t get Glee.
96. I also don’t get people’s obsession with Marilyn Monroe.
97. I prefer admiring icons that people don’t normally think of.
98. If I could travel anywhere I’d go somewhere historical. I don’t like tourist-y places.
99. I’m a fangirl.
100. I wish Firefly were real. I’d be a companion. I like the clothes.